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Sunday, 11 December 2011

When i was small...

When I was small, somewhere before kindergarten, I do have things that I used to think about and kept playing in my under-developed mind. Reminiscing back the old day can be something so nostalgic and heart-tickling at time. But you know what they say, treasure those moments because you only get to be a child once. Childhood is not born at birth nor is it developed – It’s like a soul that gracefully sweep in the life of young ones and becomes a kingdom where no one dies.
And so I sat one day on that wooden-calibrated chair that was probably around before I was born. It’s funny how it felt just like yesterday when I fell asleep in mom’s lap after tired of playing and fooling around on that very chair.
Though I was always to scare and anxious if I fall asleep too early, earlier than mom did because I was afraid of seeing unwanted things that mom didn’t. At that time around, I always contemplated that the singer had to sing directly in the radio when it was their song that was on air, and that Ultraman had to act and fight all over again if I pressed rewind. I even tried to grasp warily on each and every of his action and caught myself flabbergasted when he performed the same act perfectly.
Mom never let me played with scissors back then and I used to think of it as a motorcycle or a bike when you spread the leg wide open and make the holder as the wheel. Every time Mom takes me shopping, I would stand behind the concave plastic panel of the miniature hotel or building at the real estate booth - It's just so imaginative to see those tiny cars and roads being paved nicely almost like a toy. In the Taxi, i always got myself drenched in my own imagination and playful notion when i scrutinize that green-galloping horse on the meter. Too bad that those moment had to go and become part of our life and history. My advice is that they may cry, they may get on your nerve, but don’t take their childhood from them because they only get it once.


Wednesday, 17 August 2011

Glory of a boy.



Somewhere in 2007..
"What do you know about giving up"? , the whole class of 32 junior high students remains idle and dormant. Only the sound of the triple blade fan that was all dusty and grey fills the atmosphere. Mr. Joshua still firm with his question and had his head held high with his left hand, holding his classic Ray Bans spectacles while his eyes wander sharply into the eyes of each student.
Not one of them even made the slightest sigh nor effort to respond to the question asked by the eloquent English teacher until..... "Sir, i think i know a thing or two about giving up. I know that 'giving up' does not exist in my dictionary!", he said confidently. The whole class was left starstrucked. The 35 years old teacher nodded in satisfaction. "Only wise man say such things with utmost confidence, and one of them walk among us in this class. Thanks young man". The boy steadily sits down, carefully pulling the wooden chair closer to his feet. 
Everyone stared at the boy in amazement. On the first day of school, no one really broke the ice between each other so everyone in the class still remains anonymous. The boy was young but slightly messy with the hair. That boy was me.....
Studying in a daily high school was sort of challenging. Even as a child, i have a short-term photographic memory-which now made me quite distinguish in History class. I listen to elders with their words of wisdom. Though it was quite strange and somewhat amusing on how i pick up the English language- it was due to a satellite broadcasting media which mom and dad installed when i was 9. I call it Astro.
I didn't stay long in that school, I got to a boarding school in Putrajaya - to my surprise, the school was exceptionally great. With the title of the best all boys school in the country, the school places some of the best male mind and diligent individual. It made me felt really awesome to walk among them. But that was 5 years ago....

Today...
Today i'm a 17 years old teenager with examination lurking around the corner, though the passion for blogging never fades away in this impregnable heart of mine. How time flies - If back then, i was sitting in front of the TV and getting myself drowned in some good old cartoons, now i walk on the fast lane and lay my eyes on those young adolescent as they enjoy their life.
In the back of my mind, i said to myself, "I've been there, i've been in that shoes and how i wish i would never have to leave it". Life is hard but i got to be tougher on myself. After all, tough time never last but tough people do.
So this is my blog, i have two, i made them myself, just for you. Enjoy....................

Wednesday, 8 June 2011

My therapeutic disclosure....


I guess it's safe to say that just because a guy is crying, it doesn't make him any less man because everyone has emotion. Having said that though doesn't mean that you should break down like a cry baby and start getting on everyone's nerve, it's just common sense for us to know on where to draw the line and not to go over it.


So what i have to blog for today is something revolving around my therapeutic disclosure-on how something that could drives a soul to weep, could also drives him to be a better person for him/her or even to the mass itself. So i'm the kind of guy that gets easily touch by these kinds of elements, not that i'm easily weep, but i'm easily captivated by them.

I have a weird way of motivating myself-on how i could easily immersed in sad stories or songs or even movies. And at the end of the day, it got me into a state of where i feel the need of humility is a sheer interest. Just the other day, i was in 5 Maju with Danny and Faris because it was english lesson. Unfortunately, teacher Ezah was not around and we were left to loiter around and do whatever we favour. As for me, i grabbed this years literature book, "Step by Wicked Step" and started to read while listening to Taylor Swift's Back to December.

To start with, the story of Ricahrd Clayton Harwick was already freaking sad, and listening Back to December at the same time just simply made me burst into tears. I tried to cover it up, leaning my forehead to the table, in hope that no one would see me weeping. After a while, i stopped, i can't go any further, if i did then i would cry even harder till the whole class notices me. I put the book down, wipe my tears away, stood up and pretended as if nothing's wrong.

Later that evening, i had more time to reminisce because somehow i feel that i should do just that and the book really taught me something-on how life is not always like a rainbow in the sky and to acknowledge the dark side of life which very few of us really comprehend. I tried to put myself in his shoe and contemplate on what could happen.

In the end i started to feel better, regained my conscious and maturely grew up. Thank you my therapeutic disclosure ....